Bruce “Caitlyn” Jenner – Inspiration or Deception?

What a tough subject, the whole Caitlyn Jenner issue. I don’t condone the hatred and name calling, I feel great sympathy for him/her. Unlike most blasting their opinions into the cyber-stratosphere, I feel qualified to comment on this issue, because guess what?  I struggled with the same thing Bruce/Caitlyn does for the first 26 years of my life. I felt like ” a woman trapped in a man’s body”.  Consequently, I struggled with suicidal thoughts and depression throughout my teen years, which later spiraled into drug, alcohol, and sex addictions. (Amongst other broken ways of trying to cope with reality)

I was waiting for the “right” moment to discuss this; give a background  life summary, ease my ” many” (hehe) readers into it, etc….but all I do is procrastinate and constantly toss thoughts around in my mind  that I never jot down; so F**k  it,  what better time than now. Unlike Bruce, my life has gone in a completely different direction the last 7 years, I feel more in tune with my masculinity now more than ever. ( Not to mention I’m a lot happier) Although there’s still a long way to go. I look forward to chronicling more on this issue and a whole list of others that I’ve dealt with in future posts as I share my life story.

That being said, as far as the Bruce/Cate uproar goes, I wanted to share this post  that I found on the internet  that I feel is spot on, and for the most part, shares my sentiments.

    ” While many may say mean things that are uncalled for, the suicide rates and feelings of confusion POST-surgery seem to say that what you ask for is more akin to suffering with a smile. You aren’t helping, you are making the person suffering from this disorder even more confused. The problem is not that they are “a woman in a man’s body” the problem is that he is a man whose perception rejects reality. Because sexuality is “liberating” and so politically convenient we refuse to help this person and in fact insist that they be pushed farther into their disorder and closer to suicide.

In no other disorder do we accept this kind of rejection of reality nor do we accept the self mutilation that occurs in such. Is an anorexic person’s problem that they really are too fat? Losing a few more pounds makes them “feel” happier and they will defend such a position until it kills them. Same for other disorders in which people wish to have their leg removed or their arm because it will make them “happier”, because it isn’t “theirs” should we remove their body parts to protect their image and then celebrate it? No, we do not, nor do we blame them for their actions, calling him sicko and freak is not right, but neither is celebrating his suffering, going home feeling great about ourselves (and that is what everyone’s real goal is here) while they perpetuate a serious problem. I personally would rather be hated while doing good, than do ill while being praised personally, something anyone who has dealt with anyone with personality disorders or drug abuse will understand.

Some takeaways: Transgendered feelings usually coincide with multiple other personality disorders (such as narcissist personality disorder, bi-polar disorder, borderline personality disorder, etc.) which suggests that, yes it is a mental disorder. The process of surgically altering a person’s gender at best does nothing to stop suicide rates and in worst case, makes it worse. It is most often a decision that is regretted by the person who undergoes such surgery, the reason being is that it actually does nothing to solve their problem, again the problem is their inability to properly process reality NOT that they are a gender that they do not wish to be. Yes, if they wish to do it on their own dime and they feel like it is the right decision then I can’t and wouldn’t stop them, BUT that does not change factual science nor should political opinion alter Psychological and medical science as it has been in this field over the past few years.”

Unbeknownst to him, I feel Bruce is actually doing a disservice to the LGBT community in leading people to believe that by changing their sex their issues will go away.  Sadly, on the contrary, they’ll probably worsen. I also don’t think it’s entirely a mental disorder, there’s a spiritual element to it as well. I’ll be discussing my personal experience more in depth soon…